m 3 m o r y

is quite nice to have a memory ^^

when the music of sadness turn it on,

i just can not feel happy anymore,

life has change,

i know, life always change,

i hate when my life turn in the other way

what i have done was always wrong,

what i have choose, decide,

but im the one who blame again,

i jz hate when after i have decide

and im regreting here,
but, after i think it back,
actually im not regreting,

i just miss it So much,

i miSS my friends!!

i jz love the life in kampar

i love it damn so much

when i was in kampar

im not appreciated

always back hometown,

dun spend single time at kampar,

just want to back home,

but now,

imm the one who misses kampar so much!!!!!

T.T

all have pass,

i need to do is to remember and appreciate the memory that i wf my best fren in kampar,

i love them so much ^^
not to jealous la just put this picture haha
there are friends tat i dint add inside, but i sil love u all so much ^^
hope there is the chance we can sit down and talk about our pass

after few years hehe

new journey oF me begins

after my tear dropped of duno how many times

after i have thinking for duno how many times

after duno how many times i have blame myslef

nothing change

the problems is stil there,

my hearts is reali break , after i took it out, and it is break, i duno how to put it back

i figure many ways

but my journey is stil continuing

im regret,

repent for wad i have doned,

i reali wish times fly back ...................T.T

but is imposibles nOw


decision have made

problems have solved

all i need to do is this is my last chance

and my reali fucking chance i need and i must dO,

pass all my test and pass my degree!!!!

and take the glory back to my family

i dun wish to dissapoint my family

focuZ all my fuckiing works!!


after that i need to pay back my beloved father

i understand him , i wish to helped him,

after all i want to do a part time job

and wad i earn i give all to him



my 1st step started,

the thing quite a smooth wan

my first fren is Combodian

and second fren is sabah fren

i need to solved all my dead atitude

focuz on study !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

s A t u R d A y

today , i planing to go kampar

but i did not,

bcOZ, i scared of it,

i love the feeling when meeting someones u love u cared

but i hate the feeling when want to say gOod bye, finaly i made decision

i did not go kampar,

wish u not hate me hEEE, maybe u will se me leh 2mlo or monday hohoho

the person, eh dUn too missed me loh, nyek nYek

plz eat rice la, not ask u always eat but eat a bit la,

always eat biscuits and milo,

haiz

diet oso no need eat like this la,

ppl ask u go eat u duwan later they say u dunwan mix them ma

okay?

hee. valentines want come ady,

hOhOhO, wish u happy bah that person kakakaka,

D 3 c i S i O n

bought a book, and start my first reading,

why i will bought this boOk?

cOz i make desicion not strong enuf,

and not convinced myself,

so, i bought it,

sometimes, i make a good decision but (just make for fun)

and sometimes i make decision toO fast without thinking the long way

but, i reali curious , is not correct i make a decision?

i reali have too many doubts

but i actually know

just dun think too far

i sometimes make fast and good decision but i canot stand long enuf to bear the burden of the decision

this world is not going to give me an easy jobs, but myself

im always understand

tats why i started my reading of the books,

everydecision i make i must put efforts inside and dun give any doubts to myself

just do it and think properly before i do,

tats the points

and oso my weakness

i heard ppl say , i agreed, but after that think back

the answer is different

i must followed myself but not others

i must stand uP again

i canot lying down there anymore

wad i have go through is my journey

mY life

just to stay happy

if not wads life?

stay happy

and make ppl happy

tats life ^^

i must go through thing with a smile

dun give myself and excuses tat i canot make ppl smile

决定已下， 勇敢面对

零点，

现在只可以用这两个字形容

因为发生了一些我不想发生的事，

但是事情已过，

没有必要再想了

真的很难过，每天都过着不想 不要的生活

现在已不再想了

做回原来的我吧

没有一个人可以把我的角色 扮演 得比我更好

很多教训 很多忠告给了我狠多

但 最终还是我 做了决定

不是别人。希望我可以好起来，变回开心的我，

不知多久， 我没真正的开心过了
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想找个地方去放松下自己， 不错下吧…………^^

我相信有一天，我的考验会结束  过个轻松 自在 的生活

有烦恼但不是什么大不了的事^^

祝我身体健康   过个快乐的生活^^^^^^^^^^

无法 用 言 语 表 达 的 情感

很多事情只要做了， 如果没有想长远，后果就不会如戏里翻精彩。

我只是存翠要一家人一起，

只是这样简单，

但是，当我决定了

做了

后果，

不是我所要的

很多事如果没有一个彻策划者，

就不会有精彩的故事

我要做那策划者

把我的故事编得精彩

这样这个故事才有意思啊

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每一次， 妈妈都会很头痛

为什么弟弟妹妹都不爱跟妈妈

陪妈妈，只喜欢跟朋友，

然后每一次家里的家务都是妈妈一个人做，

我真的是看不过眼

真希望我可以做些什么

让家更像个家

今天 跟爸妈去了Food foundry 吃下午茶

在PJ ss22

感觉很好…………^^

不知道为什么这几天我都 要感觉！！

感觉很好就会很开心

但也会有不开心的时候

希望我可以度过这不开心的时期

不一样的地方 ；..）

不一样的地方

放假后回到了同样的一个地方

但是同样的一个地方， 再也不是同样的一个地方

同样的一个地方 以经变成 不是同样的一个地方了。

当一个人没有了一样东西，那个人才会晓得，

那个东西的好，才会发现真的不好受吧

人就是那么犯贱。发生了很多事情

 以前从早上，中午，晚上， 都不会像现在这样， 

好像失去了一样东西。 很不习惯了。

以前， 早上一定是两个人吃早餐， 

现在，只有一个人吃， 

午餐， 也是一个人吃

晚餐也是

这样也好…………让我领吾了一些东西

虽然跟以前吃的东西都一样

但是感觉不一样了，

虽然以前吃的东西少了一点

现在多了一半，感觉真的是不一样了。

一半都是给她吃了，因为就不让我吃着样多，

现在我可以吃整碗，但我吃不下了，想把那一半给她吃

周围的东西都好像有你的影子

有时，我忽然说话了

但没有人在

原来我在发梦

有时早上醒过来发现旁边的不是你，是我的枕头

有要一个人，TT...

少了很多声音， 笑声，哭声，叫声，还有骂声………… ^^lll

但是，一个人还是要面对的，

想过就好了

我会更长大，更男子汗，

不会再小孩子了

什么都要你烦，

你不在了，我会更自立

……………………^^..

 你放心，当每次你看到我时，我会跟令你喜欢

你不在这段时间让我知道了什么叫珍惜，

我会对你更好…………^^

答应你要做的东西一定会做到^^

你排第一…………^^lll